And for those who say so are LIARS. Today was really hard. Probably the hardest. This process really makes me think
When the weekend hit, I was out of my routine. Spending time with my boyfriend and any diet was shot. Binge, binge, binge, start on Monday. Fail by Thursday.
This time, I am still out of my routine but I have really dedicated to sticking to the same foods. My Monday-Friday foods are also Saturday/Sunday foods. Crazy enough.
As easy as that sounds my daily 5 meal pattern is off and because I'm more lethargic on the weekends, food is a lot of what I think about.
One day, it won't be that way.
What is different is that this time I am more dedicated. Today I had a rough moment. No biggie. Just stressful. Immediately I started thinking of all the bad food I could eat. Except I didn't.
I had SEVERAL hours of grad school homework and so badly wanted to sit at Starbucks in a neutral environment and just knock it out. (Remember I'm doing no sugar.) Except what am I going to eat there or order to drink? I know you just thought of a great sugar-free concoction for me but the truth is I hate those things. So I just didn't go. I knew I wasn't strong enough to go and not order my favorites.
So, a hard day but a proud day. I can sit here and tell you that I said no and I still have my pride and I made it through day 13.
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