Thankful

I'm thankful for the blessed life I have.

I'm thankful for being loved beyond measure.

I'm thankful for a healthy body that works pretty well.

I'm thankful for the resources like healthy groceries and a membership to the Y that will help me reach my dreams.

Sometimes I forget about these things. I become a bit grinch-y around the holidays because it reminds me what I don't have. 

I've had two binge days since I began 11/16. Monday and Tuesday of this week. They were hard and emotional and not worth the food or time wasted. I pulled myself back together yesterday and I feel strong that I did so. Before, that would have turned into a month or two long binge. I can do this. Even when I think I can't, I can.

I'm also a bit scrouge-y because it's Thanksgiving and I'm working my retail job. I've never appreciate service men or women and those who work in restaurants like I do today. I've also never despised consumerism or have been more aware of how much we don't need. 

Full disclosure: I did volunteer, I did it for the young girls who would be away from their family and for the young mothers. No one should have to work this day. I also maybe did it for a bit of selfish reasons. I didn't want an opportunity to overeat, I'm feeling weak and need no distractions.

Hold your loved ones close, be grateful for what you have and have a Happy Thanksgiving!

I Embarrass Me

Doing pretty well. Down 9.6 pounds. Working hard. Had the day off because I had to go to doctor and get my foot x-rayed. I decided to drive to some nearby outlets and do a little Christmas shopping. Naturally, it's freezing so I decided to treat myself to a hot chocolate from Ghiradelli  (counting those calories of course).

While drinking my Ghiradelli heaven, I walked into the gap only to begin profusely throwing up all over the store and myself. I have no explanation. Too rich? Too sweet? Belly too full? I embarrass me. 

Healthy is Hard

Still here! Still struggling. Healthy is hard. Thin is hard. One day it won't be. I have to know that. Today it is. I started back yesterday at 244.6. Obviously, I expected to wake up a svelte 125.6. Instead, 244.2. 

Taking it day by day. Slowly creating the life I want. .2 pounds at a time.

First Weigh In

Last night I had my first weigh in since coming back to Weight Watchers. I truthfully was a little worried.

I worked hard all week but New Year's Eve was quite indulgent. As in 48 weeklies indulgent in Weight Watchers speak. I wasn't out of control. I said prior to beginning festivities exactly what I was going to have and that's what I had. That actually feels pretty good.

If you have read any previous posts, you will know that I don't like to weigh in. I really try to focus on the journey and the day to day healthy eating because fluxuations  on the scale always break my spirit.

So, without further adieu....*drum roll*...I lost 7.4. Oh. My. I was pleased. I know it's a one time thing so I better enjoy it. That weigh in just showed me that I'm on the right track and my hard work is paying off. Just gotta keep on, keepin' on.

Now's also a good time for reflection on what is working and what is not working.

Typical meals include:

-cranberry English muffins with a laughing cow wedge
-omelets with goat cheese and sundried tomatoes, paired with toast
-veggie quesadillas
-bean and cheese tacos
-salmon and quinoa
-blue cheese wedge salads

and I've been pleased. I have made several of these meals lighter but they are all favorite items. I start back to school next week and I have already started making meal plans to keep the flow going! Think supportive thoughts for me! The battle has just begun!