Gotten myself into a bit of trouble and this is the only safe place to rant about it. I've always had this problem and I'm torn whether or not it is a good thing or bad thing.
Today I was on WW message boards which I frequent. I love them! They always have good ideas and offer encouragement. I don't post a lot. (*cough* it's kind of a pattern of mine) I read almost everyday though. There are several boards to chose from and I usually stick to the 50+ board. I consider myself having between 75-100 pounds to lose but I have just always favored this board. Well, I'm at home today because of break and the board was kind of slow so I started looking at other boards.
I stumbled onto the 100+ board and read several posts. I read on string that 44 people had contributed to. (some repeats I'm sure) It was flat out cyber-bullying. A woman had done a stupid thing that was kind of catty. She apologized profusely for it and they just let her have it. Another apparently infamous woman (among the boards) got involved and was literally cussing out half the board. Of course she was "WW" cussing. Leaving out vowels and such. It was absolutely appalling. So, naturally, because I have an opinion about everything, I said something. My words were along the lines of....wow, ladies. This is sad and catty. People come here for support and encouragement and just, wow.
So, then. My next mistake. (because I don't think) I went to my normal board and said, I really appreciate that everyone here is so friendly and supportive. I just witnessed ladies trashing each other and I appreciate that no one does that here.
Well, I had a LOT of support agreeing with me about other boards being catty and most saying they loved the board as well. WELL. Of course, someone came over to my board from that really tacky conversation and totally trashed me, calling me a tattle tale. Really?
We are grown people. Why are you being a high school bully? Afterwards, she went back to her board and started a post with no other intention but to trash me. Another catty post-er said that she, "told me to blow it out you know where" (we're going to discuss what that means on a later post) at which everybody laughed at. I'm not sure exactly where and when she told me this but she didn't do so in the form of words nor to me.
I expected backlash because they had already shown a lack of class but the worst was receiving backlash from people who just assumed that I had ticked someone off on another board and I was coming to complain about it. I said back on my board's post, "my intentions were to only praise my board and show appreciation for the love and support. I appreciate everyone who understood my intentions and apologize to those who don't. I'm taking my dog out of this fight."
What really just pisses me off is that like an hour later she posted a post pretty much implying that I was insincere and trying to manipulate the board. BIA-you didn't even read the 100+ board. They were literally tearing someone apart until the person said that they weren't coming back anymore. It was NOT APPROPRIATE or OK to talk to someone like that.
So. I did send a quick message to WW just saying that there had been a lot of inappropriate comments on the 100+ board. I don't know what will happen. I'm sure that I'll be blamed and hounded if there are repercussions.
This happens to me. I hate injustice and I hate the weak underdog not fighting for them self. I've always stood up to the "bully" for the underdog and I'm the only one who gets screwed. The other problem is that I honestly surround myself with amazing people. No one in my life is mean or manipulative. (Granted, you cross me and I cut you out of my life faster than a Corleone) I just don't know what is better sometimes. Let it go or continue to fight. It isn't fair for things like that to happen. I'm incredibly naive to hope and fight for a fair world.
So. I'm a pot stirrer. How do you explain to people that you've been blackballed by a bunch of WW members. That was the OTHER part I forgot to tell you. In the "bashing me" post, one person totally said something like, I don't have enough to lose to be around them. It was like Fat Bad Girls Club. Ree-diculous.
Lastly, the biggest problem is that laying down and taking it isn't in my nature. I want to fight. I want to scream and I want to hit below the belt. I want to cuss without vowels, take my earrings off and rumble. I'm am bitter and pissed that people were being asses and now they're bringing it to me. But I can't. Because that's not the woman I want to be. If I bring it, I'm literally as trashy as they are. I genuinely feel sorry for them. These are sad, obese, bitter women and I feel like a lot of this is their source of entertainment. I even stalked one of the super catties just a bit and she has a blog that is something like, The Big Fat Angry Woman. Really? Because, honestly, I'm not angry. I have a lovely life. I have incredible people in my life and I feel very loved. So I can't tell you what for. Because that would encourage you. I don't need negativity in my life.
So. With that being said. It's my year baby. I'm ready for 2012.. I love a fresh start. I'm back on plan and feeling really good.
