Dare to Be Remarkable

To say that I have fallen off the wagon is a massive understatement. More like, I have fallen off the wagon but my shoe is still caught on the wheel so I am being dragged over and over and my head is being beaten into the ground. I have been off plan for over a month. The only thing that makes it different this time is that I have not stopped going to WW meetings. I know it sounds stupid that I am not following the diet but am still weighing in and attending the meetings but I know that if I stop going, I will not easily hop back on the wagon. So, I think I'm ready to hop back on.

At my part time job at a bookstore, I was doing inventory in the diet section (I picked) and I started to look at a book that I have seen 50 times. It is called, Never Say Diet by Chantel Hobbs. I read the first chapter or so and fell in love with some Chantel. She is very pretty and was 350 lbs. She says her moment of realization came when she overheard her devoted husband making fun of a big, fat Miami Dolphins player that weighed 340lbs with his friends. She outweighed him by 10lbs. She was fatter than a fat linebacker. And THAT is a bad day. I totally get that though because my beau is wonderful but damn skinny and he will make a careless comment about someone being fat not realizing they are thinner than me.

I am still considering buying the book. She focuses on making permanent, realistic changes to your brain and body. I totally dig this theory. When I came home, I googled her to find out more and found that she has her own "weight loss empire" at which you can become a member and pay $60 for her to motivate you. So, I'm not exactly judging because I am currently paying $39.95 for Weight Watchers and I'm not even FOLLOWING THE EFFING PLAN. This introduction to Ms. Hobbs was a really good wake-up call though. Today I have been thinking about the following things:

1. If not now, when? I will be 25 in 2 months and I don't want to be a 30 year old fat girl. I don't want to be a fat bride and I don't want to be a fat mom. These things ARE all in my control.
2. I have all of the resources I need. I have a gym membership at the best gym in town. Even though unemployed, I am making a reasonable income. Because I'm unemployed, I have a lot of FREE TIME. I am a member of a healthy weight loss organization that provides several avenues of support.
3. I am an intelligent and strong willed person. I am fully capable of doing this. The only thing stopping me from reaching my goals and dreams is.....me.

So, here we go again.....