Motivation

Motivation is one of my favorite topics to discuss. It is what teachers are constantly striving to find as well as dieters. What motivates us? Why are we so motivated on the front end but as the newness wears off, so does the motivation? Research shows that motivation is internal and personal. What motivates me won't motivate you. How do you find out what that motivator is though? Can that be a Facebook quiz? Would be great!

When teaching kids, we must know their interests but they must also understand the impact of their hard work. Kids do not understand why education is so important nor do they understand why they are learning that particular concept.

Dieters on the other hand are different. We know why we want to lose weight. I want to be thin again so that I am physically attractive. I want to wear fun and beautiful clothes that do not otherwise look good on me. I also want to live forever and in order to do that, I must live a healthy lifestyle. I want all of those things badly. Then why can I stay on-plan for 5 days then eat candy, ice cream and all other things made by the devil for 3 days negating all of the progress I have made? I feel like I can't even stay on plan long enough to make a noticeable bit of progress.

If you find the answers, you call me.

Have you done it?

I did it. I finally did it. Have you done it? I'm not a bandwagon jumper so I usually wait six months and THEN try it just as the trend it dying. It was o.k. I wasn't very good at it because I'm ridiculously uncoordinated. I'm talking about Zumba. I shook my wild thing with 30 other people and I plan to do so again tomorrow night. I feel like the more I do it, the better I will get. So, are you ready for the BEST part about Zumba? I didn't even notice the hour passing. It was fast and furious and then over! My FAVORITE kind of exercise! So my other favorite part of Zumba was this ridiculousness:

What in the free world is that??????? Two older women were wearing these "belly dancer" type skirts over their workout pants. Unless you are a belly dancer or for that matter, in BELLY DANCING classes, you are not welcome to wear the clinky-clanky skirt. Do you understand me? Not acceptable. Overall: If they were giving grades for Zumba, I would get an F. Luckily, I plan to keep trying harder and will maybe earn a B+.

How Exercise and Kissing Cost Me

So. From the last post, I hope you gathered that I'm making uber effort. I want this. I walked 2.5 miles earlier today and thought it was just too hot to continue so I went home. To make up for it, tonight I decided to walk an old jogging route of mine from 65lbs ago. After my trusty route, I drove a couple of blocks to my boyfriend's work to give him a surprise kiss. We do that. It is sweet. After said kiss and surprise, I got back in the car and it was dead. Nothing.

Spoken of sweet boyfriend pushes the car for me while I steer into a better location for the tow truck guy to come and pick it up. Tow truck guy gets there and says....."hey, lemme see what it sounds like." I turn it over and it starts. Seriously. So. Tow truck guy says that it is either my battery or alternator. The goal is to take my car to O'Reilly's or Autozone or whatever tomorrow.

So. If I didn't want to exercise or kiss. I would be a richer woman. (For probably like a day.)

While I Was Out....

I frankly wasn't doing much. I am still a member of Weight Watchers but I frankly haven't been doing much with the plan. I've hit a point of super shame in my weight where I am SICK of looking like this. I have decided that I WILL blog everyday no matter what because even if I don't have a day to brag about, I still want to be accountable.

I hit a spot in my weight where I don't want to go out, be in public nor attend events that I would be otherwise looking forward to. That is just a depressing way to live life.

Since I talked to you last, I am still unemployed and I am now living in a new apartment. The only reason that the unemployment is notable is because that means I have had over 3 months of nothing interfering with a workout routine/diet plan and I have piddled that time away. That sucks.

So. New plan. Following Weight Watchers online. Dedicated to 5 workouts a week. I would like to lose 15lbs by October 31st which I know is very difficult BUT I think it is attainable if I stay focused. I also have a 25lb goal before January 1st. This IS attainable and I know I CAN do it.

So, I'm back baby.

Hello....My Name is...

Hello.........My name is P and I'm a sometimes blogger. Just like I'm a sometimes dieter. And by sometimes, I mean when I stinkin' feel like it. Does this make me a better blogger? Nooo. Does this help me lose weight? Noooo. So, as I sit here with my 1/2 cup nf milk and 1 cup of blueberries (2pts!) lemme tell what has been up with me:



I'm extremely unemployed which is creating super stress and outlook is not looking good. It has been really hard to be positive but I need to take advantage of this because I keep wondering if it is God trying to speak to me. In the past 5 years, I have not had time to take care of myself and as a result I have gained 75lbs. I have AMPLE time to take care of myself and go to the gym! My dream has ALWAYS been to write a book and now the only thing stopping me is me. I need to start my Master's and even though I'm intimidated by debt, I COULD do that. I just need to remain positive.



So. On the diet front. Since the last time you and I spoke, I had a GREAT ON week and lost 5lbs then went on a teeny-tiny secret vacation that very few know about (it was free) but there was a margarita at EVERY meal which caused like a 3.5 lb gain. So, this week I'm BACK on and I weigh in tomorrow. I LOVE weighing in Friday afternoons because I use all weekly points on Friday night-Saturday night. I used to have a Sunday weigh in which was historically speaking, not one of my better plans.



Okey doke. Going to make a grocery list and get to bed! Adios.

Sometimes I forget........

that I'm not a super hot girl. I know that this is a long journey. I know that in my brain but my heart gets often discouraged. When I have a super workout like I had tonight, I feel strong and empowered then I get a glance in the mirror and realize that I have not been doing this long enough to make a physical change. I'm still a big, fat girl. Boo.

Tonight, I do feel great about myself. I told myself that I would wake up and go to a spinning class. Ohh the bed felt good and I couldn't leave it. Then I told myself I would go to an evening spinning class and I was late getting back into town after running errands in a nearby town. SO. I went to the gym and did an hour and a half of cardio and about 15 minutes of strength training. Because it is like midnight, I had the gym to myself. It was LOVELY.

Which brings me to the two types of people that go to the gym. Type A: Regular gym goers, athletic and fitness consious. These people have ALWAYS worked out. Type B: People trying to get into shape.

I currently fit into Type B. Which is fine. I have a problem with the people who have issues working out in a gym. I could care less what I look like or what everyone thinks of me. I CLEARLY fit into Type B. Everyone knows why I'm there! So, people who worry about everyone else, eff em and start your workout.

The Hot Girl

I used to be her. And now I'm not. And it sucks. Tonight I went out with a few friends and I still haven't adjusted to the fact that I'm not going to be checked out. I know this sounds stupid but it truly sucks for me. I was always the girl approached at the bar and now I sit (with frumpy clothes on) and I feel like I can't be as outward or screamy (don't judge) because then I'm that fat girl who needs to be cut off.

This is just further motivation of what I want for my life (uhhh...the ability to look easy in a bar??). Just the confidence of knowing that I am attractive and wearing clothes that make me feel good about myself. Stay focused.