Healthy Eating? What a concept!

If I haven't mentioned it already (um...maybe I have.) I stopped doing to "fad" diet that a few co-workers were doing. The diet frankly ticked me off. I couldn't have fruit after 2 p.m. I couldn't have a steak. I couldn't have squash. Really? Squash? I enjoy squash. It's my happy, flexible vegetable. Sometimes...I need a piece of fruit after 2 p.m. Sometimes, I'm either going to hurt someone, eat a sundae or eat an orange. Let me have my fruit.

Today I started back to ole tried and true 1200 calories. I didn't hit 1200 today. I know that is because you aire of the side of caution on Day One. Tomorrow, I have no doubt that I will eat 1199 calories.

Tomorrow also starts the Biggest Loser Challenge at my part-time work place. I'm excited about that healthy competition! I'm hoping it is the motivation I need to continue being successful.

I'm very intrigued about how biology and chemistry works in the body. I don't understand the scale. I gained 2 pounds over the course of my day. I try not to look at things like that because I have to have faith that in the long run my body will post the numbers I'm hoping for.

Do you ever forget...

how incredible you are?

I have. I have forgotten how capable, strong-willed and determined I am. I have mentioned that my part-time job is starting a "Biggest Loser" like competition. I have never felt so determined in my life. I love to win. I AM a winner.

Then today, I got myself into a funk. No good reason funk. I started feeling bad about myself and that my task was impossible. I ate frozen yogurt with a bunch of goodness on top that I didn't need. I don't know why. I did decide that I am someone that gets depressed when I'm inactive. That is actually a good thing to know. If I am lethargic, I get super down in the dumps and eat everything in sight. This reminds me that I thrive when active. I am at my most incredible wheb active. So. Be active.

I've also been on this fad-dy diet because of some coworkers. I don't like it. I think it's weird. It wants me to eat foods to try and manipulate my body. I know that if I eat less and work hard, I will lose weight. I know how to do this. I can do this. I will do this.

Hungry Girl

Hello Again,

I'm on Day 4 or so and cravings are getting pretty rotten. Anyone can have a day of motivation but it takes courage to keep going and follow through. Next Wednesday my part-time job is starting a Biggest Loser like challenge. I'm excited! It is exactly what I need to build my momentum. I am a great competitor!

My next goal I need to conquer is working out consistently. I'll kill myself for a couple of workouts then not workout at all. I need create that habit!

Same Ole, Same Ole

So, I was thinking about you bloggy a couple of days ago. I'm ready to try again at this weight loss journey and I was trying to think of a good blog name. I love Another Success Story. I enjoyed blogging for my short period of time. I love to blog but it is hard to log on to say that I've once again failed. I don't want to say those words out loud. Once again, I didn't do it.

I'm confident that I've gained since the last stint at this blog. I'm at about 225 right now, shamefully. I am a little more self aware now....maybe? I now know and have the confidence in myself to know that I have the knowledge and drive to lose weight and be the person I want to be. I just don't have the habit.

I have a lot of things to look forward to in the near future and it breaks my heart to know that I won't be proud of myself in those pictures and memories. The only thing I can do is try. I plan on starting tomorrow. I know that I feel better when I am in control and eating healthy.

I have 23 days until I leave for an exciting Florida vacation. Taking a note from Endurance Isn't Only Physical, I want to commit to 21 days on the same plan. At that time, I can modify my plan for my trip.

I apologize now that the majority of the next several posts will be self-reflective whinning but it's what I need right now. Until I have a reader following and until I'm ready to be exposed, this is my diary for me to process.

So. That was an awesome post. Talk to you tomorrow!

Motivation

Motivation is one of my favorite topics to discuss. It is what teachers are constantly striving to find as well as dieters. What motivates us? Why are we so motivated on the front end but as the newness wears off, so does the motivation? Research shows that motivation is internal and personal. What motivates me won't motivate you. How do you find out what that motivator is though? Can that be a Facebook quiz? Would be great!

When teaching kids, we must know their interests but they must also understand the impact of their hard work. Kids do not understand why education is so important nor do they understand why they are learning that particular concept.

Dieters on the other hand are different. We know why we want to lose weight. I want to be thin again so that I am physically attractive. I want to wear fun and beautiful clothes that do not otherwise look good on me. I also want to live forever and in order to do that, I must live a healthy lifestyle. I want all of those things badly. Then why can I stay on-plan for 5 days then eat candy, ice cream and all other things made by the devil for 3 days negating all of the progress I have made? I feel like I can't even stay on plan long enough to make a noticeable bit of progress.

If you find the answers, you call me.

Have you done it?

I did it. I finally did it. Have you done it? I'm not a bandwagon jumper so I usually wait six months and THEN try it just as the trend it dying. It was o.k. I wasn't very good at it because I'm ridiculously uncoordinated. I'm talking about Zumba. I shook my wild thing with 30 other people and I plan to do so again tomorrow night. I feel like the more I do it, the better I will get. So, are you ready for the BEST part about Zumba? I didn't even notice the hour passing. It was fast and furious and then over! My FAVORITE kind of exercise! So my other favorite part of Zumba was this ridiculousness:

What in the free world is that??????? Two older women were wearing these "belly dancer" type skirts over their workout pants. Unless you are a belly dancer or for that matter, in BELLY DANCING classes, you are not welcome to wear the clinky-clanky skirt. Do you understand me? Not acceptable. Overall: If they were giving grades for Zumba, I would get an F. Luckily, I plan to keep trying harder and will maybe earn a B+.

How Exercise and Kissing Cost Me

So. From the last post, I hope you gathered that I'm making uber effort. I want this. I walked 2.5 miles earlier today and thought it was just too hot to continue so I went home. To make up for it, tonight I decided to walk an old jogging route of mine from 65lbs ago. After my trusty route, I drove a couple of blocks to my boyfriend's work to give him a surprise kiss. We do that. It is sweet. After said kiss and surprise, I got back in the car and it was dead. Nothing.

Spoken of sweet boyfriend pushes the car for me while I steer into a better location for the tow truck guy to come and pick it up. Tow truck guy gets there and says....."hey, lemme see what it sounds like." I turn it over and it starts. Seriously. So. Tow truck guy says that it is either my battery or alternator. The goal is to take my car to O'Reilly's or Autozone or whatever tomorrow.

So. If I didn't want to exercise or kiss. I would be a richer woman. (For probably like a day.)