Healthy Eating? What a concept!

If I haven't mentioned it already (um...maybe I have.) I stopped doing to "fad" diet that a few co-workers were doing. The diet frankly ticked me off. I couldn't have fruit after 2 p.m. I couldn't have a steak. I couldn't have squash. Really? Squash? I enjoy squash. It's my happy, flexible vegetable. Sometimes...I need a piece of fruit after 2 p.m. Sometimes, I'm either going to hurt someone, eat a sundae or eat an orange. Let me have my fruit.

Today I started back to ole tried and true 1200 calories. I didn't hit 1200 today. I know that is because you aire of the side of caution on Day One. Tomorrow, I have no doubt that I will eat 1199 calories.

Tomorrow also starts the Biggest Loser Challenge at my part-time work place. I'm excited about that healthy competition! I'm hoping it is the motivation I need to continue being successful.

I'm very intrigued about how biology and chemistry works in the body. I don't understand the scale. I gained 2 pounds over the course of my day. I try not to look at things like that because I have to have faith that in the long run my body will post the numbers I'm hoping for.

Do you ever forget...

how incredible you are?

I have. I have forgotten how capable, strong-willed and determined I am. I have mentioned that my part-time job is starting a "Biggest Loser" like competition. I have never felt so determined in my life. I love to win. I AM a winner.

Then today, I got myself into a funk. No good reason funk. I started feeling bad about myself and that my task was impossible. I ate frozen yogurt with a bunch of goodness on top that I didn't need. I don't know why. I did decide that I am someone that gets depressed when I'm inactive. That is actually a good thing to know. If I am lethargic, I get super down in the dumps and eat everything in sight. This reminds me that I thrive when active. I am at my most incredible wheb active. So. Be active.

I've also been on this fad-dy diet because of some coworkers. I don't like it. I think it's weird. It wants me to eat foods to try and manipulate my body. I know that if I eat less and work hard, I will lose weight. I know how to do this. I can do this. I will do this.

Hungry Girl

Hello Again,

I'm on Day 4 or so and cravings are getting pretty rotten. Anyone can have a day of motivation but it takes courage to keep going and follow through. Next Wednesday my part-time job is starting a Biggest Loser like challenge. I'm excited! It is exactly what I need to build my momentum. I am a great competitor!

My next goal I need to conquer is working out consistently. I'll kill myself for a couple of workouts then not workout at all. I need create that habit!

Same Ole, Same Ole

So, I was thinking about you bloggy a couple of days ago. I'm ready to try again at this weight loss journey and I was trying to think of a good blog name. I love Another Success Story. I enjoyed blogging for my short period of time. I love to blog but it is hard to log on to say that I've once again failed. I don't want to say those words out loud. Once again, I didn't do it.

I'm confident that I've gained since the last stint at this blog. I'm at about 225 right now, shamefully. I am a little more self aware now....maybe? I now know and have the confidence in myself to know that I have the knowledge and drive to lose weight and be the person I want to be. I just don't have the habit.

I have a lot of things to look forward to in the near future and it breaks my heart to know that I won't be proud of myself in those pictures and memories. The only thing I can do is try. I plan on starting tomorrow. I know that I feel better when I am in control and eating healthy.

I have 23 days until I leave for an exciting Florida vacation. Taking a note from Endurance Isn't Only Physical, I want to commit to 21 days on the same plan. At that time, I can modify my plan for my trip.

I apologize now that the majority of the next several posts will be self-reflective whinning but it's what I need right now. Until I have a reader following and until I'm ready to be exposed, this is my diary for me to process.

So. That was an awesome post. Talk to you tomorrow!